EvY at HomE

I haven't been very inspired to write because to be honest, I haven't felt myself lately. I've started and stopped a few posts about either deep thoughts or frivolous pursuits and haven't made up my mind which me I was going to put up here. I wrote about it earlier but sort of glazed over the nitty gritty of it and now that I'm home and have time to think about things, it's been weighing on me heavily just how crappy it is to have no relationship with your mother. Well... I say that with a grain of salt because if you knew how peaceful it feels to not have to deal with her that it seems like it's a good thing. But it's still a failure. A failure to thrive, a failure to communicate, a failure to find common ground. At the moment I've completely blocked her from my life because I'm not strong enough to attempt to enter the path of the destruction she leaves in her wake, where she curses at me in all caps and tells me I'm worthless and live ...

Alright so, when we last left off.... I did a Nike job which was about two weeks and a 1/2 and I'm in between jobs again so I am living that luxurious lifestyle of being a stay-at-home mom while hanging with stay-at-home dad, perfect child, family and friends nearby, lovely weather, activities a plenty in a large city, a zoo membership, and two annual passports to theme parks. Can't complain. No seriously, the only thing I can complain about is the infrequency of jobs but I think it's a blessing in disguise to tell you the truth. Someday I know I'll have more jobs than I'll know what to do with but for now I'm enjoying every opportunity to hang at home with my little family even if it means tightening our belts a little. And while it looks like we got all manner of money or something, we actually live a pretty frugal life where we are are debt-free except for our mortgage, are mostly home and going to these theme parks in the end costs us parking at one, and...