Saturday, January 20, 2018

double beds

I'm anticipating that post before might stay up longer than I want to due to lack of time to update so I'm gonna push it down a hair and put up this image for no reason.
I love the look of these beds but oof that frame doesn't look comfy.

one year later

Well it’s been a year since the inauguration of that shithole into office. Things are amazing, I was so wrong. Ever since he became president we’ve seen unprecedented harmony and love between all Americans. People have never been nicer, racism is all but gone, and the US is the most respected and admired country in the world. He’s matured so much as a person, is super presidential and never acts unbecoming on Twitter or elsewhere.

NOT.

Come on y’all. It sucks. Every few days he throws some temper tantrum on Twitter that attacks someone personally amongst a plethora of annoying things that he and his administration handles.

In fact, here are some lessons I’ve learned from the president of the United States, things I hope to pass onto my children:
  1. If anyone thinks unfavorably of you they are wrong and anything like a poll that says otherwise is a lie.
  2. If anyone criticizes you, take that opportunity to make it personal and attack their looks, their past, anything you have at your disposal, use it. 
  3. If a person of color or a woman criticizes me, I should be even more pissed. They are lower life forms and deserve to be attacked harsher than anyone.
  4. If I do anything positive or good I should expect a huge amount of praise and thanks. It should be done publicly and quickly. If anything is not done to this specification, I am free to attack them any way I see fit condemning/wishing upon them any harm I can think of.
  5. Ethics do not apply to me or my personal businesses. I am free to make money off of them and can promote them any way possible.
  6. I was right in criticizing the former president of the US for golfing too much. Even though I am at one of my resorts golfing more times that he did his entire presidency I am still right.
  7. White men are better and right. So if say a white rapper criticizes me I won’t attack him but if a Latina mayor of a town devastated by a hurricane criticizes my administration, she gets a thumping.
  8. I can get away with anything as long as I claim/pretend that I’m a Christian. Ditto to anyone else running for office even if there are pretty substantiated claims that he is a pedophile.
That’s just like… SOME of the bad stuff. 

On top of that he continues to spout racist bullshit about Mexicans and how drug and crime infested it is that these illegals are just POURING into America throwing drugs and we still need that fucking wall he was talking about. What a racist crock. Instead of trying to be a real man and real person and real leader one could do something about illegal immigration in a way that was more what’s that word… decent and diplomatic? But his racist base demands some sound byte and that wall is his big thing.

Anyway, who gives a crap about that dweeb, this is about me and how I personally have been impacted by this joke of a human being. (I mean seriously you guys, he thinks that beauty pageants are cool. He thinks that branded steaks are high class. He hosted a reality tv show. JOKE.) Overall it’s not really affected me financially in any way so far and hasn’t affected my freedoms day to day. I’m waiting and waiting for some way this administration is going to screw me for being either Mexican or a mom or a female breadwinner but since I live in California I’ve been safe so far. I’m on pins and needles about the healthcare stuff and the  tax reform stuff because they claim the middle class is safe and would get a tax break, I’m not comforted. The healthcare stuff worries me because if premiums start going up I hope it won’t affect my employer provided healthcare since through it I insure my husband and two children. I pay an extra $450 a month which is not bad so I hope I hope I hope weird stuff doesn’t start happening. 

Emotionally though, it is taking a toll on me. Spiritually, I am affected. I have taken a break from reading Twitter or the news which is great for me. It’s hard to avoid not knowing everything but it was so exhausting so just getting the highlights is the best I can spare for now. I mentioned that I’ve been going to therapy and while I never want to go when it’s time to go I am so glad when I leave. It’s really helped me process things and realize what it is that I’m angry at. 

I was also in a deep darkness for a lot of last year and I have d d d depression. Hormones + fearing for my safety and safety of my children drove me down down down. Shutting down the news was step one and therapy was step 2. I hate how much time it took me away from my son’s first year. I feel like I missed out some the highs of his babydom because I was just so hurt and angry a lot of the time. But things are coming out the darkness a lot more and there’s a tiny light and some hope and well, time. Hopefully just 7 more years of that awful rhetoric, 3 more if God is merciful. 

Things haven’t been the same with my extended family since the election since a lot of them voted for him. I don’t trust any of them. I don’t really want to be around any of them. I understand I have to deal with people who don’t agree with me on politics and religion but do I have to enjoy and revel in constant bigotry and racism? Do I have to embrace the fact that they want to build a wall between the country that made me and the country that shaped me? Do I feel safe knowing that despite the fact that I’m Mexican and that my children are half Mexican that I am valued in their eyes? That they honestly care about me and want for my safety and well being? And don’t even get me started on what it’s supposed to mean that they consider themselves Christians and they thought the most Christian thing they could do was align themselves with such hate. Align themselves with such a man. I don’t know how to deal with this and that is the part that’s talked about a lot in my therapy sessions. 

Last year was pretty sucky. Actually it was just fucking awful a lot of times.

BUT.

This year. 

I have hope. I have faith. I have family. I have work. I have friends. Somewhere underneath all this racism and hatred there is still a country I loved and was proud of. We still have National Parks (for now) and libraries and public education (for now). These are things I had last year too but it was hard to see through the darkness. I will continue to fight against the dying of the light. Let's keep resisting.

Saturday, January 13, 2018

bookcases flanking things with sconces

I like this concept for a guest room where you can fill it with pretty things but it's out of the way and completely space saving. And that you know they need lamps but there's no space so they sconce.
I consider this combination for the office a lot but I dunno if I need more bookcases in there. Plus I want them to be very specific like how the bottom is deeper than the top shelves. What's is that?
I am on my laptop on a Saturday while Alice watches a movie so I can kind of ignore her while Matt and Wally nap because a last minute job came up and now I guess I gotta work. I need more work. Xo.

Monday, January 8, 2018

the desk wall in the office

I decided when I laid out the office that the desk would be on this wall so that I'd have a space for a memo board of sorts and then we had an extra bookcase and that ended up in here and I've been thinking of what would be a good solution to this wall of desk to make it more streamlined and useful to what I think we could use in the office.
Ideally on this wall I would have a double desk and both closed and open storage. A double desk because well, I have two kids and maybe they could do homework here or I could be on one while they're on the other and one could be the boys and one the girls desk. Also sometimes I work from home and have co-workers so a built in double desk would be amazing. Probably my favorite/best inspiration is this built-in desk that was on Domino. Plus it was in green and white and pink with gold accents which are my major color combos for the office!
I also found this cheaper idea at Ikea which is a customizable wall mounted situation and it doesn't stick out too much into the room and we want as much moveable space as possible in this room. Plus it wouldn't be so permanent as the other built in. I just dunno if I'm wild about the look, but the concept yes, it's all one unit.
They do make these kind of double desks as well but I would want some wall mounted shelving as well since I do still need a hearty amount of storage. Or do we? I've been pruning away at the office and I just want to eliminate as much as possible because we already have so much stuff in there furniture wise and things wise. I have made a philosophical decision that any overflow toys would live in the kids room because we have enough toys out there already, I don't want to have to make room for spare toys in there on top of the toys in the living room AND their room?! Their closet already has art/crafting supplies. So the office will be just for office supplies/party planning/gifting.
I'm back to the drawing board in there literally working on the room board and shuffling things around. I'll post something when I think it through a little more. 

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

top 5 home items for 2018

Last year and the year before that I made a short list of a few home items I wanted and since I got 4 out of 5 I'm gonna say we did good. So here's what would be nice to upgrade keeping in mind that these are just small things that would work if we remodeled. I guess I'm feeling super wordy so this is gonna be unnecessarily long but if you don't wanna read, just look at the pictures.

Overall I'm committing to the "modern farmhouse" thing in that I ONLY want to buy things that would work in other rooms of the house if I felt the need to switch things out. Which basically means anything I buy needs to be black/white/grey and in the style of that aesthetic. I also have a major regret with the master bed and bathroom in that I wish I wouldn't have done the midcentury modern brass thing because now I want to keep the style consistent for the whole house and that room is sort of an outlier (and the office but the office is a funky playroom so it is what it is and I'm cool with it). I did do a few things recently to correct that and we replaced the brass curtain rods with more classic b&w ones which is good, luckily I bought side lamps that work earlier, and the doorknobs are all black too. If I would take it further I would replace the hardware in the bathroom to black. I would keep the midcentury modern furniture until they crapped out which is years down the line. I don't hate them by any means but my style has changed/evolved.

1) Rug upgrades for office/laundry/kid room. I have a problem with rug committing and rug choosing and just... rugs. I chose the wrong sizes, I go for cheap ones that I get sick of and as of right now I am only really into the rug in the living room and maybe the runner. The dogs ruined the rug in the laundry room, I am not wild about the rug in the kids room and I really would like a proper sized rug for the office. Right now it has a rug that was way too big for the living room and barely fits in there but I haven't found a replacement yet. I've realized that what works in our house are the flat wool type rugs with a nice soft felt pad underneath to keep them from sliding and make them softer underfoot. I need things that can be easily vacuumed and for babies to crawl on and not get lint on their hands that they then try to eat. We definitely need a new rug for the laundry room that the dogs won't chew up, they already destroyed another one. I want a better rug for the kids' room and obviously a proper sized one for the office. I am gonna need to mock rugs up in rooms before I commit and read reviews and measure very carefully before I decide to buy which will probably be from RugsUSA.com so we're talking online purchase that I can't see in person. This is Matt's most hated obsession of mine. Once I get them right I'm done! Right?
2) Matching side tables for the office. I didn't quite think through the office side table situation, we just used what we had and now that I've lived with it I think we just need some simple matching side tables that we can use when guests come over and also to stash my magazines on one side and guest blankets on the other and the top drawers can hold remotes and guest room supplies. 
3) Smaller lamps for the office. The lamps we have now are these HUGE mirrored lamps that used to work in many rooms in our house but our style has evolved and I want something smaller that suits the room. Simple and small and modern.
3) Replace light in the master closet. It's a boob light right now and it needs to go.
4) Proper desk chair. I have this very large dining chair there now and I do often wish I had one with wheels that would roll in and out easily but then I start to think hmm would Alice confiscate it to ride in it? Maybe I should get one without wheels.
5) Kitchen Faucet. We won't be doing any remodel type stuff but one thing that might be necessary would be a new faucet for the kitchen. The one we have barely moves and it can always be used again when we fix up the kitchen. 
There's tiny things I'd like to do too but these are purchases. I have high hopes that before we hit the five year anniversary of our house (NEXT MONTH) we will finally paint the living room and kitchen and maybe our master bedroom? ONE CAN DREAM. 

Tuesday, January 2, 2018

2018! We are here.

TWENTY EIGHTEEN WOOOO. The last month of 2017 was actually pretty good to great so I ended well and am starting this year very optimistically. I had a break full of productivity and nothing and socializing so when I went to work today I felt content. Which is a good feeling to have when you're a person battling depression. And these little joys certainly help.
New Year's Eve and New Year's is a big day for me. I love ending and starting things I guess? I also love the idea and themes and general what have yous of New Year's such as glam and gold. We hosted a few couples for my annual chili (3rd year in a row!) and I went all out with the table. I think I've been collecting New Year's Eve party ideas for awhile now and was glad I finally got to execute a few of them like a disco ball and clocks. Oh and the perfectly tipped over coupe, come on. 
I've got to recap 2017 soon and then I owe a few lists for house goals and personal goals.

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

feliz navidad

We had a nice Christmas with my familia at our home. My mom and Francisco made maybe the best pozole I've ever had and we had whoever could make it here plus the kids. 
It was a different kind of festivity this year with some family hiccups but I don't think we've ever felt closer to each other. 

Monday, November 27, 2017

money and time

We've started a new series at church called "The Space Between" about living life within margins. I don't quite have the time to expand on the concept but it's been really hitting home lately. The first one was about finances and the second one was about time. Time and money, the two things everyone could use more of right? So it's about those two things my brain has been going.

Money. This year has been TIGHT with finances. The primary breadwinner went and had a baby and then didn't work for three months planned, a fourth month kinda planned, and a fifth month definitely not planned. The first three months I had a maternity leave money but the other two we just ate into savings. Work was slow. Then after that it was off and on with three weeks unintentionally just a few weeks ago. And then our AC broke and we had to replace it and that was not cheap my friends. I make a pretty good living when I work so working nonstop for about three months was really helpful but not enough to help us bank extra savings and definitely not enough to qualify for a refi which we applied for a few weeks ago. Just last week my sister in-law called and we chatted about the refi and it was just after a sermon about money and living within margins and after Matt and I went and cut everything we needed to cut in our finances and not spending anything on anything other than food (and some smart christmas present fenagaling). She told me we didn't qualify because my income didn't show that I was steady which totally makes sense. I can't even say it was disappointing to hear. We did want to do the refi and cash out to do the remodel we were talking about but I just felt this big sense of peace about waiting. Just wait 'til next year. Wait 'til I am working steadily again. Wait 'til we replenish savings. Wait. Just wait. And you know me and wanting to do projects I am alllll about them. But honestly, it just wasn't ranking high on things that were super important. We own a house. In California. In greater Los Angeles. In a popular neighborhood. I mean, sheesh, that's huge enough. And I am grateful every single day about it, I really am. I'm not sitting here like ugh I hate this house, I hate this kitchen blah blah. I love this house. I love our kitchen. I just want to make them better. That's just the nature of me: I want better. But right now, we're just gonna wait. We're gonna do the little things we can do in the meantime and then we'll try again later to apply and who knows what will be going on by then. Hopefully: more money.

I got into this chat with Matt about wanting less things and realizing that the things I wanted and kept wishing for were just better versions of things I already owned. Which means: I don't need those things. They're not high on the priority list. And when time comes to upgrade things I don't want to cut corners anymore. I want to invest in things that we will like and that will last. This includes clothes too. Instead of three crappy cheap jeans, one pair of good ones that fit well. Etcetera.

And time. I think our pastor talks a lot about busyness because that's the nature of the town we live in. Everyone's always "busy". Matt and I are not "busy" per se. We don't have a lot of time because we have two small children and our days are consumed by them. They are needy of our time and desperate for our attention. Most weekends we're pretty free and we only have one weekly scheduled activity (small group/bible study) and the rest of the time it's just trying to carve time with the kids and each other. When I'm working I want to come home as quickly as possible and spend it with the kids before they go to bed around 8/9. Then wake up, get ready, go to work, try to get home as quickly as possible and spend it with the kids before they go to bed around 8/9. Repeat. So that leaves little time for each other or ourselves outside of work and the kids. Some nights we watch a tv show, some nights I organize something in the house, some nights I work, and some nights I just spend time alone watching tv or right now I just felt like I wanted to write a little bit just 'cause. I feel guilty about time and wasting time. I waste a lot of time. I prioritize things in weird ways sometimes. I start projects that can wait. I am carving out time to go to therapy every few weeks which is becoming a pretty good thing. I need time for me and I've been needing to take the time to deal with my stuff for decades and now is the time. If not now, when? Good a time as any. And we still need more time alone me and Matt. We still crave that quality time just the two of us. Which I am grateful to have that feeling. We like hanging out together after all this time and that's good!

The sermon this week asked this: What does it mean to number my days?

+ - > <
What do I need to add?
What do I need to remove?
What do I need to do more of?
What do I need to do less of?

I'm gonna start there. And I'm gonna stop here. Because it's time... for bed.

Saturday, November 11, 2017

revised ideas for the laundry room

So the laundry room has had a few things done so far on this list: we installed that overhead light that's pretty as a picture, we installed upper cabinets, and we painted the room blue. I've updated the ideas list and here's where we at.
Things to do next:
1) Replace the old washer and dryer with two front loaders
2) Build a countertop surface over the washer/dryer/lower cabinets
3) Install lower cabinets, dark grey ideally
4) Replace crappy tile floor with pretty tile floor
5) Add beadboard around the room? Would that look good?
6) Install a pocket door by the entry to the kitchen?
7) I still am loving the idea of a sink in here. These guys did a really tiny one and it's great.

Friday, November 3, 2017

ideas for the kid's bath

I assume that the first thing we'd gut and do would be the guest bath. Probably because it's teeny and probably because the bathtub in there is currently peeling and awful. The main problem with this bathroom is that it is oh I already said that: teeny. I have two ideas for what would make it look bigger. 1) a sink that isn't a cabinet to give more floor space 2) a pocket door. Overall I want it to be black and white and grey: duh. But also some wood and brass to soften it up. I have very specific rules about hardware and fixtures and my rule is: all chrome fixtures and hardware I like to be black usually. I want the bathroom to be modern yet classic, industrial yet soft. So a flower shower curtain with a pipe curtain rod. A slate black floor with a striped or polka dot rug. Etc. 
These are kinda general ideas and not quite specifically these items per se but this is the general idea. I'd like to tile the entire shower area tub to ceiling and then tile the walls about I dunno, halfway up around the whole room with white subway tile with black grout and dark grey paint from tile to ceiling. Once I put it all together it was like oh, all those things do make sense. 

Monday, October 23, 2017

spark into a flame

I threw a good party and I have time off. Those two things are leading to my brain being maxed out on inspiration and creativity. The party made me cook so that got me thinking about kitchens and recipes and the time off has me reading magazines and since Thanksgiving cooking is around the corner I'm feeling like spending some time in the kitchen again. And wishing my kitchen were this pretty. Also decided I want inset cabinets and I'm SUPER over farmhouse. Sorry Jo, I think I want something a little more classic and timeless than shiplap.
The cooking made me fantasize about a fall picnic. Gosh doesn't that sound dreamy? Even better if everything looked this cute right?
Halloween decorating ideas are still on my mind. I don't do orange, it's just not a color I do. We do black and white. And my Halloween style is more Victorian Gothic so lots of "The Raven" with bits of like apothecary and mad scientist lab. No demons or devils or jack o lanterns. Skulls. 
The Good Housekeeping issue for Thanksgiving is So. Good. One side of the issue has the most incredible looking recipes and I plan on making everything on one particular page and the other side of the issue has this great fall fashion spread that is making me want some new heels and a pleated skirt. Though a pleated skirt is a year-long thing. I love a good pleat. Also: fall florals. Can't get enough! I love them I love them I love them. Blush pink with grey and white and black. YES.
Okay it's almost 1am so I better get to bed. It's just so nice and quiet right now and my brain is craving pretty things. Just a few more web hits and then I'll go to bed.

Thursday, October 19, 2017

halloween time on the farm 2017

It's that time of the year! Yikes, unbelievable that it's going by as quickly as it is. I think babies accelerate time, it's science. After summer of course we went full on Halloween Time and Alice loves it. She's been enjoying Halloween things and is really into "The Nightmare Before Christmas" which pleases her father to no end. The decor around the house had a few additions. 

This little cameo hangy thing. Really goes with my "gothic fall" thing. 
We got yet another small white pumpkin. Honestly I'd buy a billion of these plastic pumpkins and put them around the house, that's just me.
The entry looks like this:
We got this as a gift last year, Alice is kinda obsessed with it.
And for our anniversary Matt got me flowers and as they died and dried they looked even better than when they were alive. 
I finally wrapped our latest big job and have nothing lined up at the moment so I'll enjoy a few days, hopefully a week of home life and then hit it hard to make money for the holidays. 

Thursday, October 12, 2017

ten

On September 22, Matthew and I celebrated 10 years of marriage. A decade together and I don't know anyone I'd rather spend more time with doing fancy dinners and then hitting batting cages together. I'm not sick of him and I love him more now than when we first got married.
We got hits. Those softball pitches are real confidence boosters.
You're my favorite person to hang out with my dear friend. Let's keep this party going.

Saturday, October 7, 2017

who takes care of you?

So I started therapy again. How's that for an opener? I went a few years ago to start dealing with my mom stuff but stopped due to laziness then children and after all that's been going on I decided probably good idea to go back. I went once but already I can see an overarching theme to the things going on and that is: who takes care of me?

I'm that person that takes care of people. I'm that person that naturally defaults to leadership. I have a tendency to be a mentor. I am a supervisor at work. I'm the big sister. Etc. All my life I've been that way and that has left me neglecting one person: me. Not taking care of my personal time. Not taking care of my body. Not taking care of my spirit. Not taking care of my mental health. I am low priority. And I mean, why does it matter? Who cares if I don't get time to take a bath or a massage or whatever except... that because I have three people depending on me. I have a mortgage and tenants. I have two kids and a husband. If I am not healthy, if I am not well, I am of no good to anyone. If I fall down the whole cookie crumbles. So while I may give a lot of myself to the good of everyone, I gotta learn to be good to me.

She says while pumping and staying up 'til midnight finishing up her work from the day since she didn't have time to finish and then only pumped once the whole day and ate lunch at 2pm and didn't have dinner and didn't drink enough water. Obviously, I have a lot of work to do.

Saturday, September 16, 2017

we survived mommy doing a two jobs!

I owe you a post but needless to say two kids plus mommy working two jobs was much harder than just when I went back to work with one kid. We're trying to work out this new normal and haven't quite figured it out yet but we're hanging in there though it did get pretty hairy with my emotions for awhile there. I think I have postpartum D. Sad face emoji. Okay gonna go nap with the family.

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

these two, us four

Momma is tired. Back to working mostly full time and man, two kids has been tiring at night. Either one or the other has been waking up and it's been... rough on me. Somehow I'm surviving. Somehow we're all surviving. Matt has been keeping them healthy, fed, entertained, alive. I've been pumping the milk and making the money. We're a team. 
Wally's gone from being easy to being a fussy baby. But I think he's turning it around hopefully? Will I ever sleep 8 hours in a row ever? Maybe in a few years.

Friday, July 28, 2017

i've let myself go

This is something that I tell myself when I look in the mirror at my overweight body. Man EvY, you've let yourself go. And like... when I say that it's obvious that I am talking about how my normally much thinner self is no longer thin. Temporarily no longer thin. Because I will get there again, I can. I will. And I'm not even saying that I'm not cute or that I hate myself or anything like that, it's more of I know I can look better in clothing.

One place that I associate with the better me and my style in particular is New York. Because I am obvious. I don't even remember feeling like people were better dressed that much better than I was but I just remember knowing that I could do better. A part of it is a cheat because the times I was there it was cold and all you need to make an outfit look good is a cool jacket and if you know me you know I know my way around a cool jacket. But somehow my style developed and settled after those trips to the Empire State. Yeah, mostly black and white, some color, casual but dressed up. Me. Though back in 2013 I was rocking sneakers with way more things than I should have but they're cool now so let's pretend I was ahead of the game 'kay? I look at my mirror selfies from back then and it's still me. Just the cuter version of me.

The funny thing about my feeling that New York is associated with this cool girl before kids because New York... caused children. After that trip I found out I was pregnant and of course, things were never the same again. I let my body go. I was running up to 5 miles three times a week and was running in New York up until I got back and stopped running almost immediately after that pregnancy test was positive because as you recall, I got SUPER sick with Alice and barely held anything down and all food was disgusting and I was never in the mood to run. After she was born I lost weight really quickly due to the nursing but as I've mentioned before instead of being careful I ate horribly and gained a ton of weight that I never lost because I was, you know... a working mom that prioritized sleep over fitness. And after two years of that I went and got pregnant again and was even SICKER with the boy. But now he's born, now he's five months old and now I have two children and a husband and a house and a job (sometimes) and no time to myself.

I have let myself go.

My day revolves around them. My thoughts revolve around them. And my body is still feeding one of them. My body wakes up and goes to work so I can provide for them no matter how little sleep I got. I am my lowest priority right now.

I really have let myself go. As mothers do for their children, for their families. We let go of me.

I went and scrolled back through these old pictures of our life before the kids and I found workout selfies of a much thinner, fitter woman and found photos of things I'd see during my runs. Runs in San Diego, runs in Chicago. And one particularly long run in Central Park. I would usually run one route but that day I decided to go a different route and went past the Central Park Zoo and came across something that stopped me dead in my tracks. It was the Alice in Wonderland statue. I came across it totally accidentally but knowing it existed and always wanting to see it in person. I walked around it and read the inscription and said to myself someday I'll bring my kid here.
What I didn't know at the time was that Alice was there. Teeny tiny but she was there inside of me about to change my life in a way I never knew possible. Changing my body in a way I never knew possible. Stretching it, aching it, it would never be the same again and I have the stretch marks and scars to prove it.

And now that both of my kids are here, now that I am (almost!) done sacrificing my body to house them within me and feed them with it on the outside of it, I need to make efforts to take care of my body again. I've let myself go and it's time to find myself again.

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

back to work

Y'all know me still same old G.
Mommy's first day of work in an office.
Alice's birthday was my first day of work. Luckily we celebrated more when I got home.
Matt sends me adorable pics while I'm working.
He rolls to his belly a lot more now.
This little face is what I stare at while pumping at work.  Das right foo, I provide for my family while providing milk for my son from my body. Brining home the bacon and the breastmilk.
These faces greet me when I come home.
I could not be luckier.

Thursday, June 22, 2017

h&m kids clothes: matchy matchy

My favorite clothing store for kids is actually H&M. They have a killer selection of simple and adorable graphic clothing for modern kids. For funsies I made a few boards of outfits that I'd match the kids in if I was the type to match children. Which by the way I totally am. I don't do identical outfits but I tend to put them in the same color family or similar themes, especially if I were to take them somewhere like say... 

Disneyland
Horton's Hayride or other Musical Events
 The LA Zoo

The Aquarium
 The Boardwalk
 A Church Picnic or Spring Wedding

Comic Con
 Knott's Berry Farm
I made these boards months ago and then you know... the kids. They took over. 

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

pretending to design a kitchen is fun: part 2

In my copious free time (sarcasm) with the two kids I've been continuing to pretend I have a kitchen to design. Once you start putting things together that you like you start noticing where you're lacking or what you're overdoing. After I put all the basic elements together you see the top two rows I realized man, all that black white and grey makes it look really you know... black white and grey. But it's an easy enough fix: add some color/warmth. So the accessories like the colorful bowls we have, wood shelves, wood cutting boards, flowers, copper accessories, these things will help warm it up and make it more us. 'Cause I love b/w/g but I am all about pattern and color too.
The other things on the board aren't specific or exact. 

Things we already have that we wanna work with:
- The black hardware pulls
- The Samsung fridge
- The Samsung microwave

Things I know I want for sure:
- Farmhouse sink from Ikea (it's cheap and has two sections unlike most farmhouse sinks).
- A dishwasher that disappears into the cabinetry.
- A chef style range that slides in and is flat on top (like no buttons by the backsplash area) and either looks like the one above or is the Samsung version. Honestly an oven is an oven to me. I've made amazing food with cheapy stoves so I just want something that's gas and works and is purty.
- Subway tile backsplash with white grout or grey grout. Not sure how much contrast I'll be into. I'm also into the beveled style subway tile. 
- Countertops either marble style (could be cheaper quartz or whatnot) or plain white. I keep thinking what will photograph well or look good when we host and set out buffets. 
- Grey lower cabinets and white upper cabinets. A few glass front cabinets too.
- Gingham backsplash. Like this but gingham pattern.
- Chrome faucet and pot-filler. 
- Pendants over the island that are not very showy and almost disappear.
- An island that can seat 4 with simple counter stools with backs.
- A black toaster.
- Wood open shelves with simple black brackets.