Tuesday, December 30, 2014

anatomy of a mom outfit

Whenever Matt has to work I take the chance to go to Ikea. I have a long running list of things to get from there and I had a few returns at the mall so I got dressed for a little shopping with Alice. I put everything on without thinking about it until I looked at myself in the mirror and realized I had just put together the most mom outfit I'd put together yet. At first glance it looks somewhat normal but I broke it down for you to see the method to my mom-ness.
The outfit was very comfortable and I was prepared for dealing with whatever the baby threw at me. I was unprepared for her being so tired from resisting her morning naps that she slept the whole time in her stroller! It was great. She's napping in the baby carrier on my chest right now which is the only reason I was able to make this graphic. Ha Ha.

Monday, December 29, 2014

re-surfacing, barely

Last week was crazy busy as the week of Christmas does to one + add a baby and you got yourself some tuckered out peeps. Coming soon to this blog will be: Alice's 1st Christmas, HUOD 8th Annual B&W Christmas party, the birth of my niece, maybe the recap of a few year's past Christmas parties that I haven't recapped, Christmas decorating, and goals/wishes for 2015 (house & us).
Alice is going through some phase where she wants to be held a lot and kinda refusing to sleep in her own crib, the crib she's been sleeping in perfectly well for the past few months. We're in the magical trenches of this particular age where her development is a day by day adventure and it's making her extra needing of mommy and daddy. I'm gonna detail this whole ordeal because I like looking back on her progress through this blog, see how far we've come etc.

Friday, December 26, 2014

jarah elianna

My sister in-law gave birth to the latest family favorite on December 23. Part mom & part dad, she's just perfect.

I forgot how teeny newborns are, they weigh so little!

A belated Christmas gang. We have been so busy lately and I am so tired. More to come next week.

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Sunday, December 14, 2014

being there

Matt worked so Alice and I spent the weekend just the two of us. We walked to Ikea for 99¢ breakfast (and gold wrapping paper purchasing) & she had her picture taken with Santa at the mall. I dressed us in knit hats & that pleased me to no end.

I live for weekends. They are so much more important now that I try to squeeze in the missed quality time during the week into two days and boy is it quality. She is such a good girl in addition to being the cutest thing on this earth.

She did give me what I can only describe as some serious Camacho eyebrow. This isn't it but I knew it when I saw it. It's a face only my dad, brother, & I make.

I am there. Even when I'm not. There I am.

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Tuesday, December 9, 2014

there's been a lot of crying in the fredrich household lately

I did not know the assault on my heart that working the sort of hours I've been working would have on me. Alice is fine. So good. She has her stash of milk I pump for her and her daddy takes her on long walks, plays with her, gets her down for naps, and makes her laugh and smile. She's been really interested in her toes and puts them in her mouth, rolls herself over from her back to her tummy and vice versa, and is getting chubby around the thighs.
The sucky part about these facts are how I hear about them more than I witness them. Last week I got home in time to tuck her in and change her diaper right before bed but on Sunday during the day when I changed a diaper I noticed how much chubbier her thighs were and I cried about the fact that I hadn't noticed that because its always dark in her room when I change her. I should know that her thighs are getting chubbier. I should know this.
She's decided her bedtime is 8:30-9 so now we work around that time. which is great since now Matt and I have alone time but that leaves me very little wiggle room to get home and hang with her. That Monday was the worst day where I was gone before she was up and then back after she was in bed. It was the day before our shoot and we were in the office from 7am 'til 10pm and she was asleep by the time I got home and I realized I hadn't spent any time with her all day save for a 4am feeding. Ugly cry ensued. Sob Sob. I JUST MISS HER. Boogers. I DIDN'T SEE HER ALL DAY!!! Blubber blubber.
Tuesday was our first shoot and by miracle, though I had to be at the location by 4:30am I was able to get home to hang for a few minutes and then put her to bed. And I do mean a few minutes. She was on her play mat and I held her and she touched my face and hugged me and smiled and laughed and then she started fussing because she knew milk was there and milk means bedtime and she was ready. Those minutes while I held her and saw her were full of happy tears. I love her that much. I miss her that much. And I can't do much about the situation but hang in there and know that Friday will be better and I'll be there for her in the morning and there for her at night. Then the weekend. Then a week of wrap, then I am done for the year and will be holding and hugging her as much as humanly possible. I didn't mind being back at work but those long days are absolute misery missing my Alice. And I know she won't remember these long days. She will have many more happy things to remember about mom.

But still. There's a lot of tears.

Friday, December 5, 2014

tonight i didn't put her to bed

All week at work our dismissal times have gone longer and longer as we get closer to our shoot date on Monday. Tonight's was the longest and Matt got Alice to bed at her earliest bedtime yet of 8:30 while I got home around 10. It was the first time I wasn't home to put her to bed and probably not the last and it broke my little heart.
It is So hard being away from her on those long days. Matt brought her to visit one day and we did a little facetime but I just miss her. I get so little time with her when I come home. I get the morning feeding and then I get a few minutes of holding and then its bedtime. Too little time.
It's the weekend so I will be spending my day snuggling her every second and hearing her laugh during the day. There's more to say about motherhood and working but for now, I guess I'll go to bed and when I am awakened by my Alice I will be so happy.

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